I have a mixed relationship with writing. My father has a Masters in English, and impressed upon me the value and beauty of the written word. However, in school I was forced to write endless papers about subjects about which I could not give two fucks. I managed to save nearly all of my schoolwork from elementary school through university, and nearly all of it makes me gag when I read it, because I can feel how hard I was pushing myself to regurgitate something the teachers would approve of, whilst resisting with every fiber of my being.
However, I found a way to keep despair at bay, which was to satirize wherever possible. Being snarky turned out to be a safe harbor in a world of terrifying boredom and seriousness. At some point, I will present some of those pieces here.
These days, I write about how many "normal" experiences are actually rooted in trauma, in an attempt to educate people as to why they should become clients of mine, while also giving expression to things I'm genuinely interested in. You can read about them on the Optimize Consciousness Blog.
Eventually I'm going to write a book. I've been keeping detailed notes for the last 6 years, which, until recently, have been a massive, mostly horrible experience of ego death and existential dread that has somehow led to me becoming someone I genuinely love and admire, doing things in the world that feel deeply meaningful. My life feels like a Hero's Journey, and at this writing, I am in the 11th of 12 stages, Resurrection. What will happen next?!